Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Letting go...

Hi all! Did you have a great weekend?! I sure did. My original plan was to do like usual and have this first post of the week chronicle my weekend, but I decided to leave that for Tea Time instead. I had a really fun dance event on Saturday to kick off the summer performance season, and I figured that made for great podcast fodder, so there you have it. You have to wait til Thursday for all of the exciting details. ;-) But I promise that it will be fun and worth the wait!

In the meantime, I have been busily reading Church of Spies each night for our book club, as well as contemplating a few things...

You have may noticed via my ramblings on here that I have been very busy of late. Indeed, I have felt quite overwhelmed. I am self-aware enough to realize that the common denominator here is ME. Certainly there is a lot to be done on a day-to-day basis, both at work and at home, but my life is no different than anyone else in that regard. I kept hoping that things would slow down, but I have finally accepted that they will not. I have a husband and two young children, a house, and a full time job outside of the home. This is just my state in life right now. I love it, so I wouldn't change a thing. Therefore however, a Constant Sense of Busyness, along with its annoying cousin, Perpetual Forgetfulness, are simply my boon companions right now.

I like to be busy, but I don't like to feel overwhelmed. And I think that the worst part is that I have absolutely no idea what to do about it. :0 I suppose I could worry less about things, but it's not like that is an instant overnight solution.

I truly enjoy my hobbies and avocations outside of my family and my job: Dancing, knitting/crocheting, reading, and writing. But I am starting to feel a bit stressed about fitting in the activities surrounding them. Dancing and knitting are mostly not a problem. This is the busy dancing season, but it only lasts for 3 months out of every year. My reading time suffers, to be sure, but I do what I can, and don't stress about it. This is why we restructured the book club, and so far so good! Writing, on the other hand, I've been thinking about this a lot.

I don't anticipate ceasing writing generally, or on this blog. But I have to admit that I'm feeling the time pinch a bit when it comes to my writing projects. I had something planned for the summer that I am not certain I'm going to be able to do anymore, because I fear it would officially put me over the edge into I Bit Off More Than I Could Chew territory.

There is really no point to this post, in case you were still wondering. :0 I just figure that some of you may be experiencing something similar in your lives, and we could relate together.

*group hug!*

I suppose that it's possible that some weeks there may be less than three posts. I really don't want that to happen, but life is unpredictable. So if that happens, I will have to learn to accept that. This blog has always been a refuge for me, and I do not plan on letting it go. But I do plan to endeavor to let go of my feelings of control about it. We enjoy our time together here, you and I, and I want that to continue. There is no need for stress anywhere in our happy relationship. :)

Last spring I did a re-evaluation of my existence here on the blog, and it turned out really well. Thus, I suppose I'm going through another spell like that. Where is God leading me? Should I change up the structure somewhat? How can I alleviate these feelings of anxiety over meeting my writing goals each week?

I will be keeping this all in prayer, as I hope you will as well. I have more of a sense of community here on this blog than ever before, and I cherish it, truly.

If you have any suggestions, I am all ears in the comments. :)

4 comments:

  1. Hello Tiffany,

    I am the lady in a library in Canada, I don't often write but be reassured I read everything YOU write and you are a great source of inspiration to me as a catholic, a working mother and a mother. I don't comment in your bookclub as I can never keep up, but I do like to see your suggestions and have read books in the past you have recommended.
    I really wanted to say I feel for you in that life is busy, and I adore reading your blog, but know what it is like to be overwhelmed.
    I do hope you continue your blog but if it helps, even if you wrote once a week I would be happy.
    Also, I know it was a long while ago, but I too have experienced in the midst of feeling I was doing my best for God, when suddenly I experienced a feeling of not doing well.
    I don't know why that happens, but in the end, it has made me realize how hard it must be for people without God in their lives.
    I have gone to confession, and then come home feeling all is well again.

    I like you, love rosaries, and saying the rosary has given me untold blessings.
    You are a joy, don't be hard on yourself, families are a lot of work, I have 4 grown up children and many days it feels like I have 8.
    Take care, God bless
    Clare Ann

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  2. Clare Ann, you are such a blessing to me!! It is so lovely to read of your own experiences here, thank you so much for that!! I am certain that there is a way of balancing things better, and I appreciate your thoughts on the frequency of blog posts, that really helps a lot!

    Thank you again, dear one! *heart*

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  3. Hi, Tiffany, I just read your post from June 7th. You are a busy lady. I just wanted to say that I love your posts on the chaplets and have learned so much about how to actually say them from you. Thank you for posting them. I have even begun to make my own. I have loved your blog posts but I understand if you must cut back on making new posts. You must do what is best for you and your family. They are your first priority and you are putting your priorities in order. God will bless you for that. I taught CCD for three years and loved it, but certain things family things happened and I had to stop, at least until the Lord leads me back or opens a window to something else. I miss teaching so much but I know the Lord is leading me through it all. He will lead you through your life too. Sometimes, when we are serving Him, we get too much on our plates and He has to rein us in so we can find peace in our lives. Thank you again and God bless you and your family.

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  4. Hi Debbie! This is SO LOVELY, thank you so much!!! I am so happy that people are using the chaplet recordings, that makes me ever so happy! And yes, I appreciate your thoughts on my time dilemma. I think things are going to work out such that I can keep things up here, but we need to always be looking to see if we're taking on too much. I'm certainly guilty of that quite frequently!

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