Morning all. My heart has been heavy this spring with a local tragedy that I now bring to your attention as well. Little Ben Sauer is a 5 year old twin boy who has terminal brain cancer. The story is absolutely heartbreaking and the past day has been particularly grim. Every time I think about it, I feel like I'm barely holding it together and I don't even know this family! It's just that every parent fears this exact scenario. Your own death? Not pleasant, but we all have to come to terms with it. The death of a close family member or friend, parent or spouse? Very, very difficult. But the death of a child? Unspeakable. Unthinkable. Unbearable.
It has caused me to think about my relationship with my own kids. Do they drive me absolutely crazy sometimes? Yes, yes they do. :) I'm not really what I would call a *natural* with children. I love children, always have, and I absolutely love and treasure my own. But playing with children and dealing with all of their quirks and needs does not come as second nature to me. I work very hard at it, and oftentimes I fail. But always, always I want to provide for my children emotionally, spiritually, physically and financially. I love them and want to do right by them, have them feel nurtured and loved, and raise them to be good, moral and compassionate people.
I'm not always as patient with them as I could be. But I resolve to do better and soldier on. And lately, all I want to do is go home and hold them tight. Let them know how loved they are. Hearing about a tragedy like this has that effect on a lot of people, I suspect.
Would you all please pray for Ben and his family? His mom, Mindy, and his dad, Andy? His twin brother Jack, and their sister Megan? There is also another little sister on the way, due in mid- September.
The Our Lady Undoer of Knots novena with Pray More Novenas starts tomorrow, that's one tool out there for our prayer life. :) Any and all prayers are absolutely coveted and appreciated by this family.
Thank you to everyone. *heart*