|Found during a tour of the new rectory/community center at our parish yesterday|
Friday afternoon, let's just say that I had a WEE bit of a
I just...I had a moment. A series of moments, actually. I just felt furious that my happy, peaceful little job has turned into this frantic situation in which we're constantly in full out Panic Mode, and putting out fires. I always feel breathless, like I can't focus on any one thing, because there are 20 other debacles needing my attention, and like I am making so many mistakes due to the omnipresent confusion and developing emergencies. It has been a nagging source of frustration to me since mid-August.
I took the weekend to settle down and re-evaluate things a bit. My job, despite its current set of challenges, has some really wonderful aspects, and I'm incredibly grateful to have it and contribute to our household in this way. I also read Chapter 3 of Live Today Well for our book club over the weekend, which focuses on prayer upon rising for the day. It REALLY had an impact on me.
Like St. Francis de Sales teaches, I should focus on the positives, NOT on the negatives. This is Life: it is ALWAYS going to have some negatives. And if we dwell in that negative place, EVERYTHING seems negative, it's like a line of dominoes. However, if we make the choice to be happy, even in amidst a difficult situation, it makes the entire day seem brighter.
I've been doing that this week. And it's WORKING. I feel at peace and happy, and I see lots of student smiles coming my way. And it's not like the circumstances of the week are all that much better. Let's take Monday as Exhibit A. When the last item on your to-do list reads:
"Fix Blackboard/ Group Disaster thing,"
...that gives you an indication of what my day was like yesterday. :0 But you know what? It was *fine*. I was still happy and calm, even during an in-class Crisis Moment that developed into full out Chaos when the group assignments didn't happen in our Course Management System the way that they should have.
So I'm going to try to continue on this path. St. Francis has really come through at the right time. Have you had any St. Francis moments lately? I'd love to hear about them. *heart* And don't forget, Live Today Well book club tomorrow!
Oh Tiffany, so sorry to hear about your disaster day! And yes, had a minor well not crisis of your magnitude, but was able to just ask God to calm me and went through rest of evening more in a St. Francis frame of mind. Had been to library on Monday and the librarians are suppose to say, did you know you have items due today. They didn't. So having a hectic day did not check my account until next day and found 9 overdue items. Ok so a dime per book would be minor enough but I had borrowed o set of DVD s that cost $1 per day fine. So was up to two before I got out today to return and of course, I had forgotten to include one of the dads! So another day's fine Garrett not drastic but since I live five minutes from a branch I had hoped to end overdue books this year and be a better steward of my money. Anyway, fuming over the cost and aggravation, I almost hit a woman in a crosswalk! Thankfully I didn't. Feel like St. Francis knew so well that if we take these aggravating moments and put them in God's hands, we can stay grounded in peace.ReplyDelete
Oh Donna! I.Totally.Understand. As soon as you're flustered by one thing, it quickly turns into a series of additional flustering things, and next thing you know, your head is a giant ball of anger and frustration. YES. And indeed, I'm trying to move away from this, and allow the frustrating things to pass away, right out of my little head, before they can spiral. If I choose to dwell in the tranquil, things around me seem easier to bear, even when they're chaotic. We'll get through this together. *heart*Delete
Been there with the DVD's too, btw. Inevitably, it's some random Peppa Pig DVD the kids wanted that then they never watched. :0